Right now, I'm sitting in my underwear, with dramatic cat-eye eyeliner sharpening my eyes, listening to the second album I've made with Joe, and this all seems so wild and crazy as this makeup (the eyeliner was a whim—I've been watching a lot of Mad Men).
I've been absent from Blogland (pronounced "blahglund") for good reason. Since making the shift last year, my world has burst like a firework—opportunities have risen, love for myself and others has blossomed, and I'm processing everything raw and unfiltered for the first time in my life. As I'm circling back on a year, my values are emerging, as are those activities I want to develop into healthy habits. One of those is sharing and connecting with others, and I can participate in the collective conversation through this blog.
So there will be more on my sobriety when (by the grace of God*) I reach one year. For now, my reentry may not be super smooth, but I'd like to say "Hi again!" with our celebratory summer album, You Win Summer, You Lose Summer, available below! And check out a little video we made to accompany one of our favorite tracks on the album.
Love!
*Again, I feel the need to mention that I use God here as a placeholder for my higher power. I haven't found a word that captures what I'm trying to express more aptly than God. One of my friends uses Guide, which I love, but gets lost in translation without context.
How wonderful! Thanks Nichole. I am really looking forward to listening to that. This journey of ours is really something, isn't it!
ReplyDeleteHi Nichole, man you have a pretty voice. I know how rewarding it must be to be discovering this new, different version of yourself; but terrifying too right?, all of the "feeling" we do as sober (or in my case, more sober than I was before) people can be overwhelming to begin with, after avoiding it for so long When I went through something similar, I found that I had to re-learn who I was. A clear perspective changes everything. Clarity.
ReplyDeleteKeep on.
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Thank you Teeny! I do enjoy singing so much, it's one of the things that grants me a little serenity.
DeleteAnd yes, you're absolutely right, this can be terrifying, but incredibly worth it. I am so grateful to be able to feel again, and I know there is as much potential for joy as there is despair. It is all in how I choose to approach the world. In my sobriety, I am more likely to approach with love and acceptance. That is my re-learning—not only who I am fundamentally, but how I approach and exist in the world.
Holy smokes girl! You've been busy blooming. So happy for you. And so so so excited for your burst of creativity. Send a little my way, I could use it. I love the word placeholder in this context. It's so apt. And where exactly does one purchase this album you speak of? Happy High Summer! Oh and remember, we are to meet this year.
ReplyDeleteOh girl, you can download it for free here:
Deletehttp://joethompsonandnicholepoinski.bandcamp.com/
Sending creativity vibes your way! And yes, yes we are. My boyfriend and I may take a trip out to the islands in the fall, I'll email you!
You have a beautiful sweet voice, Nichole - makes me miss my band days although I never sang like you!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on living your new life!
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cortnie
Thank you! I want to hear your band! Where can I hear your band?
DeleteBeautiful! I am loving your blog this morn.
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